Sunday, April 5, 2009

Positive does not have a value, if negative does not exist!

There are certain things in life that u do not understand why they happen till u look back in time and realize how everything has fallen in place. And it is very obvious to think that was it predestined.. Was it just a part of some play that we are a part of… well, I felt so, and not just once so many times. I actually never liked the situations I always end up in, but now when I look back I know what a spectacular journey it has been and definitely it made me the person I am. May sound over optimistic but that is how I feel. I am not glad about what I went through but nor do I regret anything. Again, everything fell in place with the time.

One thing that I learnt is that if you believe in yourself, in what you doing, you can never go wrong. Standing at this point of time and looking back in time, the emotions are mixed, one side it seems as if just yesterday when I was having a rough patch with my family, and other hand couldn’t believe that patch ever existed! It’s been 4 years, and life couldn’t have been better and couldn’t have asked for more. A wonderful friend who turned out to be a more wonderful husband! Papa was so upset with everything that he did not talk to me for almost two years and now he can’t stop admiring his son in law. He seems to have found his long-lost son! And I feel content, I feel proud! I feel satisfied!

The journey from being a miss to missus was rather strange... Things change after marriage, does not matter how long you have known your spouse. It's not just the two people now; it is about a whole bunch of people in the family and their respective ideologies and emotions. When I got married, nobody from my side participated. . And o boy! What tantrums I threw! How emotionally charged I was!! And my hubby was there to bear the brunt! Later I realized I never thought what he would be going through at that particular time, even he was stepping into the same world as me. His family had planned everything, but still I wasn’t their choice. I was not of the same region, nor the same religion. They accepted me whole heartedly; still Sam was all alone in this. After all, Indian parents do not discuss “feelings” or “emotions”, or for that matter, anything openly. And then we had another marriage, 10 months later, when my parents accepted us. O my! Another f***ed up situation! My hubby again had his calm and patience to handle everything perfectly. His humor, his spirit is just inspirational. Ah! I am so blessed to have him in my life.


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